Meg & Cas - Breath of life
-Cas turns human and gets his hands on the demon tablet. The former Angel suffers under the loss of his demon and resurrects her with a spell from the tablet.-
my heart is broken
sweet sleep, my dark angel
Meg & Castiel - Closer
New and Improved
After Castiel met Zoé he was about to zap to meg. Not that he would show off but she needed to know what he became. He stopped at the thought that maybe she was with Luzifer so he decided that he used his new powers for the first Time to zap her to him. She would be surprised and a little spark inside him found this amusing.
He focused on her Demonic but almost Human Soul and it was easy to find her with the Arcangelic force. He stood behind the Bronze, hiding from the Puplic that no one saw her appear and after a little Moment she was sucked away from his Grace and landed in front of him.
Meg was looking at Zoé’s shop again since she had no idea what she should do about Tara abandoning her and about herself wandering around town. She had to admit that she missed Cas and that she didn’t really care that her Lord had somehow degraded her into a whore. If it meant that her only duty was to fuck Cas, she was happy to do it.
Suddenly she could feel that she was summoned. Lucifer hadn’t done it for a time and it was really strange. Suddenly she felt like being sucked into a black whole. It wasn’t painful but more like falling towards a vortex and then … “Cas?!?” she almost shouted in disbelief as she recognized him steading herself.
He smiled slightly as he saw her and tilted his head. “I’m sorry that I terrified you.” He said with a guilty face. “I have News.” He walked toward to her and gave her a brief Kiss.
“What was that?” she turned in a circle and blinked at him. “Did you do that?” Meg furrowed her brows at his words and wanted to fold her arms across her chest, but just then Cas kissed her, taking her breath away. Meg scolded herself for her weakness. “News?” she tilted her head curiously.
He smiled at her and moved back a bit. “Yes, it was me, I thought it’s more secure that way.” Castiel thought the best way to show her what he meant was just one thing. Yes, maybe he wanted to impress her. he had to admit to himself. He dropped his head and released his Wings. Now she would know immediately.
Meg tilted her head into the other direction and her long, curly hair followed her movement. In the moment Castiel released his wings Meg’s eyes widened and she stumbled back against the wall, having nowhere to retread. They were enormous. SO he had an upgrade? “You…. you’re what?” she stammered. “An archangel? Please don’t tell me that everything’s grown. I might have my problems there.” Even though her mouth still was opened in awe the corners of it rose a little.
He smiled at her reaction. “Yes, Raphael…he is Human now and I got his Grace.” He said and stepped a bit closer. “Zoé she did this.” He crooked his head in Confusion. “What do you mean? Just my Wings are bigger and my strength grown.” He titled his head to the other side. “You have no Problem with their size, right?.” He said low and moved his Wings in her direction.
Meg tilted her head again, still marveling at him and pressing herself against the wall. At his question she chuckled, biting down her lip. “Your strength?” she pursed her lips and licking across them, before her eyes moved downwards, grinning again. “Oh no, I don’t really have a problem with size”, she purred, but quickly looked up again and gasped, when he moved his grown wings. Somehow she had to admit that they scared them. He most definitely outmatched her now. Meg could feel the heart of her meatsuit jump wildly and the heat of her body rose. Yeah, this did turn her on.
He made a little smirk. “You seem a bit overcharged.” He still was a little worried that she maybe was scared and moved his Wings away from her and folded them behind his Back. He closed the distance between them to embrace her. he Kissed her careful. “Don’t worry, I’m still Castiel.” He whispered against her Lips.
Castiel woke up when the Sunlight met his Face. He blinked and yawned a bit. He looked on the Body that still warmed his. “You stayed?” He said amazed to Meg. He knew Demons don`t sleep like he normally neither. He raised one corner of his Mouth. He stretched his Legs and realised that his Wings are still showing. He shrugged and let them vanish with a shy smile on his Face. “You watched my sleep?” He snuggled against her.
Meg hadn’t closed an eye that night. She had spend it with thinking, but mostly with watching Castiel sleep, this tiny smile on his lips, how he nuzzled against her. He was that trusting and innocent that it hurt her and she could feel herself change, become dependent on him. She hated and loved it alike. Still with all the doubt and anger she felt, she didn’t move, further more she placed the blanked across them and watched him sleep, watched his vessel breath calmly and for some moments through that night, she felt perfectly peaceful.
Castiel couldn’t believe how good it felt just to lay in her Arms. He caress her Chest and looked up to her Eyes. He felt better after the sleep. His Power was still low but filled up a bit. He sighed and pressed Chin on her Shoulder. “You could have leave me here.” he said low.
Meg blinked, trying to hold her composure, trying not to show her emotions. After all she was a demon, after all the wasn’t supposed to show or to have a weakness. “Could? It’s not that I could have moved.” she replied cockily, feeling the heat approaching her cheeks.
Castiel raised his Head. “I´m sorry, i didn’t noticed how heavy i am.” he said and blushed a little. He moved up to gave her space. He scratched his neck and looked to the side. “Last night was… nice.” he bit his lower lip. He still could feel her touch on his already hidden wings.
Meg didn’t know if she should look earnest at him or start to laugh, but the way Cas looked at her just made her melt in an instant. As soon as he moved to give her some space, she caught his face with her hands and pulled his lips upon hers. First the kiss was softly, but as soon as Meg tasted him, she felt how her mind was drifting away and the touch got more and more intense, just like the heat of her body.
Castiel sighed at her Kiss and embraced her, feeling her hot Body against his. He felt his vessel react to hers and broke the kiss, raising his eyebrows. “It felt more intense…in the morning.” He said with surprise in his Voice. He smirked a little and kissed her again more passionate. He caress her back with his fingertips. “He moved his mouth to her neck up to her ear. “I love you.” He whispered. it felt better and better every time he said it.
Meg simply stared at Castiel, replying the kiss feeling overwhelmed. She had no clue that was going on and her fist instinct was to run away, but his fingers on her skin paralyzed her. She could feel her breath tremble. Meg was torn between desire, fear and …. it had to be love. This warm feeling, the yearn to hold him close, never let him go, to move, earth, hell and heaven to keep him save. “And I love you”, she whispered, trying to keep her voice steady. He would be her death, she was sure of it.
Meg’s reply let him shiver. Normally he would shiver in disgust hearing those words from a Demon but it was Meg and it was right. He said it to Dean It felt right and it still does but he was sure that it was a weakness. She would be his weakness but he could bear it. He learned this feeling and he won’t lose it. If this meant to sin he would`t mind. his Father didn’t care anyway. He shook the thoughts away and licked on her soft skin down to her collarbone.
Meg could tell the familiarity of his thoughts to hers in his face. It wasn’t doubt, only a mere concern about the consequences. She most of all was afraid, knowing that one day she would have to choose, not knowing which one was the right choice. Before all this had happened, everything had seemed so easy, but now … now her existence felt so ridiculously human. Before he could continue the downwards spiral of her thoughts, Meg could feel Cas smooth tongue on her skin, sending waves of electricity through her bones, giving her goosebumps. She gasped heavily, feeling the reaction of her body.
Castiel felt Meg tremble underneath his Actions. He stopped and gave her a knowing smile. She made him smile like no one did. He always held his compose but she turned his World and spirit around. It was almost ridiculous how he behaves in her presence. He played with her Hair and sighed. “This is strange.” He said and tilted his head. “I feel so Human when you´re around.” It sounded wrong after he said that and he turned his head to the side. “It’s complicated.”
Castiel broke the Kiss and moved away from her. he wanted to concentrate clearly, remembering the stumble of the last time. He frowned and closed his Eyes. The Motel near by was his target. he raised his hand and touched her Forehead. when he opened his Eyes again he sighed. Empty Room. He walked to the Door and locked it. It´s not that difficult to use his borrowed hands once in a while. He turned to Meg and crooked his Head.
Knowing that he needed to focus Meg gave him space, biting her lower lip again. She shouldn’t do this, she knew. Maybe even more because Lucifer seemed to approve this. On the other hand, she didn’t care anymore. With a glimpse she was sucked away and found herself in an empty room, feeling a little dizzy. Castiel walked towards the door and locked it. She turned around to watch him and then he looked at her that way. “Hell, Cas”, she moaned and paced the few steps between them, crushing him against the door and her lips on his.
castiel gasped heavy as Meg slammed him against the Door. “Meg..” he pushed her slightly from his Body. He moved his Eyes over her Body and bit his lower lip. “I..” He felt awkward and shifted to the Bed by passing her. He set himself down and played with his hands. “You know, I saw many things but I´m still not very taught in this.” He looked to the side feeling his face flush and he hated it. Even if he felt more freed when he was with Meg he was still so uncertain. “Can we just..” He broke the sentence and rubbed his Neck. She was adept in this Kind of things and He couldn’t even think the Word Sex without blushing. Love was a good Word nice and warm. “…make Love?” He swallowed. He hoped she would understand what he meant cause the three times was just so fast and dirty. And he still had to learn.
Meg pouted when Castiel pushed her away from him, puzzled about his reaction. The way he looked at her and bit his lip almost made her insane, wanting to tear his clothes off. But then he moved away and she frowned, staying where she was. Tilting her head she listened to what he had to say, slowly moving towards him. When he blushed it made her smile slightly and her heart jump - at least it felt like this. “make love?” Meg blinked. love? She was speechless. He was talking about slow, tender, loving… Her dead heart began to race. She had no idea if she could do this at all. Meg bit her lower lip and stopped right in front of him. “I’ll try” she said. To remember, she added silently.
He raised his Head to face her and smiled shyly. “We`ll try.” He said low and offered her his Hand. He hoped he can do it cause every time they started, it was like something possessed his Body and blocked his Mind. He was a little shaky. She was so near again that his Nose got pleasured by her smell. He closed his Eyes and inhaled her scent. Sometimes he hated his Angelic senses but right now he was grateful. Even if he got weaker he could still use his basic skills.
Meg let her jacket drop and cupped Castiel’s face with her hands, softly pressing her lips against his in an almost shy kiss, inhaling his scent. Immediately a shiver ran down her spine and again all that she wanted was to rip off his clothes and jump bis bones. She fought it off, letting her hands run down to his neck and pulled him softly on his feet, to run her hands beneath his coat, shoving it from his shoulders. Meg kept placing soft kisses on his mouth, stopping herself every time to move towards to his neck.
Castiel needed to talk to meg about Luzifer and Jo. And he felt the urge just to see her. He sighed and focused on her. He reached her Demonic Energie and sensed someone else in her presence. He frowned and needed one Moment to concentrate. It´s getting harder to zap for him, since he lost more and more Energy. He appeared next to her a few seconds later.
Meg let Angelus take control, never lessen the grip on the blade Castiel had given to her, hoping that the arousal the Vampire created in her would stop her thinking of him. Then, suddenly she sensed a strong power of good and pushed Angelus away, wiping off her mouth. Slowly she turned her head towards Castiel and immediately felt ill. “W…what are you doing here?”
Angelus smirked widely and then Meg pushed away from him, he looked to where her eyes were focused on. He saw a medium height man who looked like he hasn’t smiled in years, he must be supernatural or something. He wanted to lash out but withheld since Meg must have known him. He kept his eyes on Meg and the stranger.
Castiel looked at the Men. He sensed that he was not human and Meg’s Face showed panic. Was she in a Fight? He frowned and tilted his head. “Meg?” He took a step that he was half in front of her. “Are you alright?”
Meg clenched her jaw and tilted her head slightly back. “I’m perfectly fine”, she tried to act coolly. “Just in the middle of something.” Her grip around the angel-blade tightened and she moved it behind her back. Meg was fully aware that she didn’t introduce the two to each other. She looked at Angelus and rose one brow only to return her gaze to Castiel, feeling helpless. She and helpless. Anger showed on her face.
Angelus saw the helplessness in Meg’s eyes and cracked a grin, he looked at the man, he was definently otherworldly material “Who are you?” he asked, not completely interested but seen as Meg was too busy clutching the angelblade and pulling the silent treatment. He broke the ice. He sighed and folded his arms “We were in the middle of something, so if you don’t mind”
Castiel narrowed his Eyes. He noticed his Blade in Meg’s Hand and raised an eyebrow. The smell of Musk and Blood hit his Nose. “What is going on here?” He gave Meg a brief Gaze before he walked toward to the stranger. “How about you tell me first who or what you are?” He said hiding his confusion with a stoic face. What was that something they talk about?
“That’s none of your business”, Meg narrowed his eyes and poked him in the chest, with her left and free hand and placed it on his chest to move him against the wall again, grinning at him playfully with her head tilted. “Let Mommy and Daddy talk, will you?” She turned around and took a step back towards Castiel, with a more earnest face, putting the blade beneath her jacket: “Demon-things, Castiel” she said lowly. Since she had had her little playtime with Angelus, she felt dirty all over again, but somehow it didn’t feel right. Why didn’t it feel right?
Angelus was slowly moved to the wall and looked at her, but his eyes could still see the stranger. He didn’t say anything, he just nodded. He kept silent for once in his very long life. Watching and listening, when she said demon-things he scoffed lightly and looked up at the sky just gazing.
Why was she talking like a child to him again? He felt Anger and confusion. The Stranger won´t answer is Question and he kept his Eyes on Meg. He moved more into her Personal Space and crooked his Head. She smelt like Sex all over. “What Demon-things?” His Voice Deep he talked through his clenched teeth. He wasn’t stupid. The Atmosphere said everything. His Vessel inundated with adrenaline, it almost felt like it prepared for a Fight. His Grace reacted with his growing Rage and let his Eyes glow. “Don’t fool me!” He growled.
Meg flung around and glares at Angelus or the noise he had made. She didn’t want to make the situation any uneasier as it already was, but as she turned around Castiel’s deep voice gave her thrilling goosebumps, literally. Meg just tilted the head and attempted to say something, when his eyes started to glow and he growled at her. She blenched back, her eyes opened in shock. Even though it aroused her when Castiel was that menacing, she felt a block in her stomach when she realized. “Are you … jealous?” Meg frowned in bewilderment. The way he behaved was just like he would have caught them with pants down.
Angelus looked at her and shrugged, watching the newcomer’s eyes glowing. This was new, he raised his eyesbrows. He felt a little…odd like the blood made him sick. But Vampire’s don’t get sick. So he watched the newcomer and Meg talk, jealousy was a burden and a good motivator. He grinned.
Castiel gazed at her. he gritted his Teeth. His Mind got totally distracted by the unpleasant Smell on her. He made cloyed noise. “Am I not enough?” Castiel almost yelled his Words. He felt the Eyes of the Stranger on him and turned around fast. The Grin made his Anger grew even more. “What?!” he growled. He walked forcefully towards to him and his face darkened. He investigated him, tilting his Head.”Vampire.” His Hands clenching he was almost about to smite the Creature in front of him. He gave him a Dark Glance. But instead that he let his Anger out on him he zapped himself in front of Meg again. It was all her Fault. She made him feel like this. Castiel was so full of Rage and Anger. And the thought that maybe Meg lied at him. That she don´t loved him, let his Grace burn and he lost totally control of his Mind. As he grabbed her by her Collar, he zapped them to into a near alley cause his concentration was completely gone with his compose, he wasn’t able to focus on a specific Place anymore. The scent of the Vampire on her filled him with disgust. He pushed her against the Wall and gritted his Teeth. “Why?” he growled and felt just the Hurt of her betray in his Chest but also still the burning Heat by touching her. “Why?” he hissed against her Face almost near enough to kiss her.
Meg stared at him, totally speechless, her eyes torn wide. She couldn’t believe the intensity of his feelings, his emotions, for her. Her lungs pulled in the air the had pushed out of her as he had hustled her against the wall. A tremble rolled through her body hearing him growl and a torrid pain plunging through her chest as she could hear the pain in his voice. He grabbed his face with both of her hands, pulling him against her lips. “I’m sorry”, she whispered tonelessly between her kisses. “I’m sorry.” Every stone of her rebuild hardness melting away like mere ice. “I’m sorry.” Meg could feel tears in her eyes. What had he done to her? Why was she this weak? This emotional? This … human?
Somewhere in between
Meg groaned as soon as the pooped into an empty motel room. “Thanks for the ride”; she simply said and walked towards the door. “Maybe you should figure out who helped little Jo out of the pit. Just sayin’.” She was angry about the whole situation and actually a little hurt. So Meg didn’t turn around. She didn’t want to look into these skyblue puppy-eyes and be all over him again.
Castiel clenched his Hands and breathed heavy before he spoke. “Please” He simply said, hoping he could reach her. he didn´t want her to leave like that. he had questions and feelings. She had to explain it to him. He had to know what she felt. “Please, stay” He felt awkward begging like this but he coudn´t help it.
This simple word seemed to be a string with which he was able to chain her. Meg stopped, but she wouldn’t turn around. She kept quiet and the only thing that actually showed her agitation was the clenching of her fists, with which she forced herself not to turn around, and not just simply continue with what they had started. Not again.
Castiel watched her stop in her movement but didn´t face him. He sighed. “I..” he searched for words. He wasn´t good in things like that. How could he? “I don´t want you to leave.” He said and even if he didn´t knew why, he wanted her to stay so badly. He shifted to the Bed to set down. Feeling despair reached his mind. Everything broke into pieces. he was about lose the war, he will be killed by raphael, he was less a use for the hellmouth and he betrayed his Friends for nothing. And now this? A Human Weakness that distracted him? possibly love to a Demon? He rubbed his face with one hand.
Meg could hear the hint of emotion in Cas voice and almost turned around, but it was the noise of him sitting down that eventually made her face him. Be herself, she walked over and stopped right in front of him, looking down. Her hand flinched, but wouldn’t move. Whatever it was, what radiated from him and suck her in, it immediately overcame her again. She flipped her head back and growled again. “Cas, I’m here”, she sighed and looked down at him again. Why am I even doing this? she asked herself, before she ran one hand through his hair.
Castiel felt her touch and looked up. The slight move through his Hair relaxed him. He couldn´t find the right words for what he felt. he was just relieved that she stayed. “Thanks.” He said low and smiled mildly.
His low voice played her body like an instrument and his smile made her reply the expression. Meg couldn’t withstand to sit own on his lap, straddling her legs and take his face in her hands to kiss him, longingly. She had no idea why this kiss was so soothing. But everything was just messed up, at last she could take the benefit of it.
Castiel swang her Arms around her, in that moment she set down on his lap. He kissed her back like he waited years for that, the time in Dean and jo´s motel room was just to long. But he wanted answers, he needed answers. He gasped and broke the Kiss. “Please, tell me what you think.” He said breathing heavy. He looked her in the eyes, tilting his head. “I need to know.” He held her firm in his arms, not letting her eyes go out of his sight.
Meg ran her hands through his black hair while kissing him, closing her eyes and completely forgetting about everything until he tore away. “Think about what?” she tilted her head in the same direction, softly grinding against his lap. “What do you need to know?” she whispered, leaning towards him. His arms around her felt so good.
Trying to find the right words, he bit his Lip and frowned. He tightened his grip around her back as if he was afraid she could ran away. “what you feel, for me…” he said deep and tried hardly to stay focused on her eyes while she rubbed over his lap.
Meg looked at him with big eyes. “I … don’t know”, she replied. “Hey you yourself said angels couldn’t be in love with demons, so what’s the deal?” Meg traced down the dominant lines if his vessel’s face with her index finger. She wouldn’t tell him anything until he made her. How he held her tight, almost hurting her, made her breathe tremble in arousal. And again she rocked her hips against his lap. Then she leaned down to whisper into his ears, switching sides now and then: “Make me. Tell you.”
He stared at her in confusion. Her constant pressure against his lap made him hard already and he moaned unintended. “You want me…to force you?” He gasped leaning against her.
Meg trembled, when she felt and heard his reaction to her. She kept on moving against him.”Yes”, she whispered into his ear, brushing her lips across them before she started kissing his neck. “Just like I make you”, she nipped the skin beneath her mouth. “Tell me”, Meg licked his neck and ran her hands down his chest and upwards again, so that he would take of his cloak. “How do you feel.”
“I… i don´t know.” He licked his lips gasped. He pushed his hips up, feeling the heat between her legs. He moved his Arms from her Back to get is coat off. “I…want…I need…” Castiel shivered heavy and grabbed her thighs to stop her movement. “You tell me first!” He said rough.
Meg sighed when Cas pushed his hips against her but it was him grabbing her hips that made her shiver and gasp. His rough voice sent fire though her spine. “Just to look at you makes me want you”, she whispered and played with his tie, which he wore inside out again. Maybe she couldn’t move her hips, but she still had her hands and her mouth. So he freed him of the tie and rand her hands up his neck, into his hair, brushing her lips against his neck again. “Your voice makes me shiver, when it gets rough like this.”
He held her Legs steady but her lips on his skin let him moan. His Head felt back. Castiel tightened the grip on her legs and he tried to gain control. He looked to her and frowned. “Why?” he growled. His Fingers digging into her Thighs. “Why do you feel like that?” He grabbed her waist and turned her around to push her down on the Bed. “Why do I feel the same?” He hissed and kissed her fiercely. Inside Cas grew a Mix of Anger, Hate, confusion and lust. He needed to know if he really loved a Demon. He groaned against her Mouth and pushed her violently into the sheets. “Tell me.” He said darkly.